Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Crab...oh! Crab...

 Hot from the wok. Golden crispy garlic and dried cilli...

 On the plate. I left it cold to make it even more crispy...

 Tada~~~ My first Hong Kong "Bei Fung Tong Chao Hai" is done!!

                                                                      避风塘炒蟹

Monday, December 27, 2010

Coca Cola baby...




I know I know....It is so blur that you can't really see clearly about this Coca Cola baby...but sorry, that fella kept moving his head so I didn't even get the chance to snap a proper ones. I love this fella...

It is supposed to be a lazy Sunday...hehe...then my friend called, asked me to go for DimSum at SS2. And also asked for my help to go Brickfields with her cause she wanted to buy a puppy for her gf...So, after lunch we headed to Brickfields. Didn't know that Brickfields had already renovated and named Little India. As Usual, many cars, many beans and, no parking. We managed to find a parking lot at somewhere near Sri Kota and walk to that pet shop that opposite KFC. Many dogs, 4 Shetland Sheepdog puppies, some lab pups, even black ones. Goldie, Beagle, some grown white Schnauzer, but yellowish. A salt & pepper Min. Schnauzer...etc. The shop staff shown my friend a min. poodle, 3.5 months, not nice. So we decided to go for rounds again...While we were walking back to get the car, I saw something that I've been looking for so long, hehe...live crabs. So I've got 4 crabs home and planning to cook for Ally. Then we went to Damasara Uptown. There are 4 pet shops there, but all are selling cats. So...we went to Kuchai, the same row with Mr. DIY, and we saw this cute little poodle. He was steady and quiet. And the most special, he furs is in Coca Cola color. Dark brown nose and blue eyes. The shop offer for 1500. We ended up managed to get him at 1400. No cert. That was what I comforted my friend..."he will be one of your family if you buy him, if 1400 can get a family member, why not?" So...this is it. We brought this lovely pup home.

While we were on our way back to my friend's house, we were thinking of his new name. Got Bruce, Ipman, Wong Fei Hong, Pak Fun Kiong, Siu Meng, Song Por, Fatt Kor, Tak Wa, Teng Lek, Hui Mun Kiong, I gave Kuro-Chan also, cause he looks black, Takeshi, Tequila, Dai Lou, Lou Sai, MJ, Sammi, Scotty, Sami Velu, some I already forgotten. And ended up we both agreed...Hairy Potter. LOLZ!!!

Well...whatever name also, still have to let his new mom to decide for him. It was just so fun to have him to involve in our life now. What a cute baby and he is only 2 months old. I bought a collar for him as a welcome gift. He looks so smart with his new collar.

Then I reached home at around 11.15pm just now. Was so worried about my own 2 old babies, that haven't eaten yet, must have already pissed at me...oh maybe they already messed up the house...I was peeping outside of my house and see if the living room have already messed up, surprisingly...nope. OK, I opened door and first thing I said sorry to my old babies, the got thru the scans from NiuNiu, caused by Hairy Potter...left the crabs on the basin and prepared food for them in the first place. Noticed that Aminah came back home just now, and already cleaned up their poops and changed the newspapers. Thanks Aminah.

So I went to take my shower. And get prepared to kill the crabs. I followed the instructions from my friend, that " how to kill a crab". and make sure rinse and clean all their mud and shit. Before I kill them, I noticed that they were staring at me. So I did the same thing like my daily routine, I told them one by one that "I love you, I'm sorry, please forgive me and thank you. Then only I cut them. So there was the first time, I killed a crab, no...it was 4 crabs. May you all RIP. Tomorrow, I will cook them with golden crispy garlic, dried chili and spring onions. This is a very famous dish from Hong Kong. Ally was craving to try since the day I told her about this dish. I can't wait....

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2010...

On this day...the Christ birth, So many things that I wanted to say...so many things that I wanted to share...
2010...is supposed to be a bad year for me. Well...a month ago I was still thinking like that. I was still blaming others why am I still having such a bad luck? Why am I the one who is always ill? Why am I who is the one who always got hurt? Why?...why?...why?...

And then one day, when I was planning to drive in to Pearl Point basement, to get my car wash. It was a Sunday. While I was waiting for my car done, I went up to get my favorite tea leaves, then headed to Popular...my intention was those CDs...as I don't have a good habit for reading...I thought all I wanted is to see some CDs...
and then...while I was wondering around inside the CD area, phone rang...It was Jo. We were talking about whether wanna have dinner together later or maybe a couple of drinks, suddenly this book's name appeared in my mind. It was introduce by a very nice lady named Ann in Penang. Who is trying to help me to get out of my deep grieving and my illness. She told me about this book last year, said it could help me. Then I was sad enough that I didn't even bother at all. Until recently, when I was talking to another friend named Anne...don't ask, it's all fate. She reminded me this book again and said that she has a Chinese version that can borrow me. But til then she never passed to me. So while I was talking to Jo on the phone, my mind appeared "The Secret". That time I was standing in front of one of the book rack. Effortlessly, it appeared in front of me. On the same height with my eye sight, right in front of me. I grabbed the book and paid to the cashier immediately.

I started to read on that night onwards...and it attracted me like a magnet. I started to understand, why am I feeling all those anger and miserable all the time. Why am I so broke? Why am I sick? Why am I keep detracting myself? Why all those bad things keep coming to me one by one? It is all because I don't love myself...I found myself unloved, I found myself got abandoned from my parents...I labeled myself without a value. I've got not even a tip of confident at all....

That was me...then I started to feel regret, isn't that too late for me to find out? I am the one who attracted all these bad things in my life...due to my negative thinking to the law of attraction...so horrible huh? Then I started to be more and more positive each day...be gratitude in life. Be cheerful and appreciate to everything I've got. Things has changed miraculously...I feel more healthier, more smiles every morning when I woke up...more happier with things that surrounded me. I started to love myself and accepted who I am. I have forgiven myself of the mistakes I have made, forgiven to those peoples that hurted me. Forgiven and apologized to to my parents and siblings. All I have done...is just the 4 phrases...I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me and thank you. Not in front of them, but in my heart...

Good friends that was already given up on me, has already attracted back by my happiness and positive energy, they all are so happy to see my transformation and new mindset. Thank you Lord, I have awaken by your greatest love. The best birthday present ever, the lesson of life...I have never been feeling so freedom and peace...it's all from my deepest of my heart. I was set free...

Good news keep coming in...I can easily attract a parking lot wherever I go...My car alarm that already dead for months, working so well now...And the best Christmas present ever...is I finally found a new job that I love. I know...there are more and more miracles that are gonna happen to me. I am waiting patiently...

Today, is my first day of training. First day of my period too. Woke up at 6am, felt fresh. Reached Klang at 8am, which was half an hour earlier...Then went in for training. Although things went not so smooth, a lil bit of messy, a lil bit of migraines...a lil of traffic jam, and...a lil bit of constipation...well I reached home at around 4.30pm. After I have gone to the government clinic to get my one month medications. I was freaking exhausted when I reached home...

After I have done my fb routine...I went for a nap for almost an hour. Woke up with a massive headaches...straight aways driven me to my emo again...badly...negative thinking keep attacking me, especially when I was thinking about Y, my god sister, my house mate. She is such a pain in my ass...sorry I know I shouldn't criticize her and say her in that way...she really driven me mad. The way that she acted, no confident, simply grab whatever black bean that got dick and whomever that can tell her "I love you" just to make her feel that she got value and loved and attention. What so ever I can think about...Now she even more irresponsible and stingy to this house. Not even come back to sleep. Whenever she appeared at home was because she wanted to do her laundry, that's all...and I found that whenever I sees her, it really pissed me off, I pity her mom that raised her up and now all her brain is about fucking a black dick. So pathetic!! This is not the first time that I have warned her not to screw up. but...but...but...

Sigh...the more I was thinking...the more anger strikes. Then I could't fight anymore...when I walked down to my desk and saw RM100 Jusco voucher on top of it. I knew she left it to me to go n get some groceries and food that I need...then I collapsed. All I asked for...is that she knows how to love herself. No one could do that if she doesn't. Even her mom...even her siblings, and even me. Why everytime she has to hurt herself in this ugly way? To hide away from her lack of confident? Lack of love? Lack of attention?? So I texted her, asking about the rental things...we talk in a proper ways, she told me that sorry that she couldn't help me in cash but only the voucher. And I also told her that I understand, all I wanted is to love herself instead of harming herself endlessly...and I wanna let you know that I love you, I'm sorry, please forgive me and thank you...I'm truly...I don't know how you feel when I told you to love yourself, but I'm sure this is not the first time I told you to do that...this is the one and only most powerful way to your happy life...a real joy.

Then I called mom when I reached the mini Jusco that near my house. To wish her and told her that I found the job. She sounds so happy and thank god for the blessings and listen to her prayers. In the other side...I was silent. Then my voice turned shivered....I just don't know how to tell her the way I felt. I was feeling so imbalance...she said come back to god, go for baptist, then only I entitle to be god's child. He will take my problems away, give me guidance. Heal me and walk every single steps with me...and the most important, they could find me when I die, cause we are going to the same place...heaven.

To me now...my little inner space is my heaven. I found more and more peaceful inside there each day. Thank you mom, now I'm feeling much more better.

Wonder why I'm staying at home during the Christmas Eve? Because I found peaceful in my heart. Deep down inside...me, myself & I are getting along in 1 heart...feeling the joy and gratitude...with my 2 precious furkids. By the way, today is officially 2 years for KaKa came home...time flies...She is a beautiful and sweet girl now who only knows how to win my heart, I love you, KaKa...after this papa gonna peel oranges for you...

Sunday, December 19, 2010

A blessing Gyoza~


Made with love and happiness...

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

我懷念的...







我 問 為 什 么 那 女 孩 傳 簡 訊 給 我
wo wen wei shen mo na nuu hai chuan jian xun gei wo

而 你 為 什 么 不 解 釋 低 著 頭 沉 默
er ni wei shen mo bu jie shi di zhu tou chen mo

我 該 相 信 你 很 愛 我 不 愿 意 敷 衍 我
wo gai xiang xin ni hen ai wo bu yuan yi fu yan wo

還 是 明 白 你 已 不 想 挽 回 什 么
hai shi ming bai ni yi bu xiang wan hui shen mo

想 問 為 什 么 我 不 再 是 你 的 快 樂
xiang wen wei shen mo wo bu zai shi ni de kuai le

可 是 為 什 么 卻 苦 笑 說 我 都 懂 了
ke shi wei shen mo que ku xiao shuo wo dou dong le

自 尊 常 常 將 人 拖 著 把 愛 都 走 曲 折
zi zun chang chang jiang ren tuo zhu ba ai dou zou qu zhe

假 裝 了 解 是 怕 真 相 太 赤 裸 裸
jia zhuang liao jie shi pa zhen xiang tai chi luo luo

狼 狽 比 失 去 難 受
lang bei bi shi qu nan shou

我 怀 念 的 是 無 話 不 說
wo huai nian de shi wu hua bu shuo

我 怀 念 的 是 一 起 做 夢
wo huai nian de shi yi qi zuo meng

我 怀 念 的 是 爭 吵 以 后 還 是 想
wo huai nian de shi zheng chao yi hou hai shi xiang

要 愛 你 的 沖 動
yao ai ni de chong dong

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌
wo ji de na nian sheng ri ye ji de na yi shou ge

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最 暖 的 胸 口
ji de na pian xing kong zui jin de you shou zui nuan de xiong kou

誰 記 得 誰 忘 了
shui ji de shei wang le

想 問 為 什 么 我 不 再 是 你 的 快 樂
xiang wen wei shen mo wo bu zai shi ni de kuai le

可 是 為 什 么 卻 苦 笑 說 我 都 懂 了
ke shi wei shen mo que ku xiao shuo wo dou dong le

自 尊 常 常 將 人 拖 著 把 愛 都 走 曲 折
zi zun chang chang jiang ren tuo zhu ba ai dou zou qu zhe


假 裝 了 解 是 怕 真 相 太 赤 裸 裸
jia zhuang liao jie shi pa zhen xiang tai chi luo luo

狼 狽 比 失 去 難 受
lang bei bi shi qu nan shou

我 怀 念 的 是 無 話 不 說
wo huai nian de shi wu hua bu shuo

我 怀 念 的 是 一 起 做 夢
wo huai nian de shi yi qi zuo meng

我 怀 念 的 是 爭 吵 以 后 還 是 想
wo huai nian de shi zheng chao yi hou hai shi xiang

要 愛 你 的 沖 動
yao ai ni de chong dong

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌
wo ji de na nian sheng ri ye ji de na yi shou ge

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最
ji de na pian xing kong zui jin de you shou zui

暖 的 胸 口
nuan de xiong kou

誰 忘 了
shei wang le

我 怀 念 的 是 無 言 感 動
wo huai nian de shi wu yan gan dong

我 怀 念 的 是 絕 對 炙 熱
wo huai nian de shi jue dui zhi re

我 怀 念 的 是 你 很 激 動 求 我 原
wo huai nian de shi ni hen ji dong qiu wo yuan

諒 抱 的 我 都 痛
liang bao de wo dou tong

我 記 得 你 在 背 后 也 記 得 我 顫 抖 著
wo ji de ni zai bei hou ye ji de wo chan dou zhu

記 得 感 覺 洶 涌 最 美 的 煙 火 最 長 的 相 擁
ji de gan jue xiong yong zui mei de yan huo zui chang de xiang yong

誰 愛 的 太 自 由 誰 過 頭 太 遠 了
shui ai de tai zi you shei guo tou tai yuan le

誰 要 走 我 的 心 誰 忘 了 那 就 是 承 諾
shui yao zou wo de xin shei wang le na jiu shi cheng nuo


誰 自 顧 自 地 走 誰 忘 了 看 著 我
shui zi gu zi di zou shei wang le kan zhe wo

誰 讓 愛 變 沉 重 誰 忘 了 要 給 你 溫 柔
shui rang ai bian chen zhong shei wang le yao gei ni wen rou


(我 怀 念 的) 我 還 有 想 要 愛 你 的沖 動
(wo huai nian de) wo hai you xiang yao ai ni de chong dong

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌
wo ji de na nian sheng ri ye ji de na yi shou ge

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最 暖 的 胸 口
ji de na pian xing kong zui jin de you shou zui nuan de xiong kou

我 放 手 我 讓 座 假 洒 脫
wo fang shou wo rang zuo jia sa tuo

誰 懂 我 多 么 不 舍 得
shui dong wo duo mo bu she de

太 愛 了 所 以 我 沒 有 哭 沒 有 說
tai ai le suo yi wo mei you ku mei you shuo

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Happy Buffday~ to you...

                                                    Yo!! We are The baka's

                                                    Yawns~~~

                                                    I'm KaKa...I'm the cutest...

                                                     I'm NiuNiu...and I'm always cool...

Happy Buffday to you mommy~~~~~slurps...slurps...slurps.....

Monday, December 6, 2010

Happy Birthday...

Felix...what do u want?

I kena molest...

Ah Sim...apa pasal you sepet?

My best-est best buddies...

'Yeng' mou??

The restaurant staffs with their shoe rack instrument...

My long bean necklace....

It came too fast and I didn't manage to take snap the whole cake...

Wearing on my long bean necklace...hoohoo!


The Electrical Lemonade


to me...Yeah! I'm officially 37! Lolz!! It's been great since yesterday...went out with bees, Joey and Jean...the three 'Ah Mao" reached The curve first at 7.45pm last night, and waited for me at Bumbu Desa-an Indonesian restaurant. I was late...purposely...hehe, because I am the main actor of the night ma....Reached there around 8.15pm, and they already almost finished up everything...I was not that hungry so I picked another 3 dishes for myself...The food was ok....

While I was still eating half way, the waiter came up and asked Bees...when are we going to serve the cake...and...whose birthday...Bees were kinda...errr...awkward...So never mind...since the pot has already broken, I asked Bees straight away...mau kek lagi meh? Then how come the waiter so no brain ah?? Asking siapa birthday in front of all of us?? I thought that is just a cake, after meal they might just send it and let me blow the candle...that's it....Who knows? The 3 'ah mao" played so hard, the whole restaurant staff...all of them...sang something like pantun to me and playing with their instruments that look like an Ikea shoe rack to me...so so so loud...until there are people just standing there to watch at me...malu nyer~~ Still not enough...They made me a necklace with long beans, helped me to wear on, asked me to serve the cakes, even TGIF at the opposite also got celebration...still cannot beat them, because they r too loud. Ok...it tooks them around 6 mins to finish the whole pantun...I was too excited and shy until my whole face was turned red and sweat....

This is how my buddies celebrate my birthday for me, hahah...a good ones though. But I will make sure I will pay back an even better ones to them...ngekngekngek~ After the dinner, we went to the laundry....Bees met a gay friend there...this boy is really nice and friendly...and funny too...He bought us 2 pitcher of Electrical Lemonade...which is quite good...ermmm...abit sweet to me, but nice. I had 2 glasses then I headed back to Heineken draft...my all time favourite. Didn't drink much last night, I was kinda full and it was really hot over there...

Tons of fun and this is it...Didn't go out today, slept til 2pm...friends called and surprisingly...my ex boss called me, twice...I didn't pick up though...was too tired. Have not been slept well for the past one month...and finally can get back to normal which i can sleep well these few days. I feel grateful especially today, mom called as well and also i didn't pick up. Called her back she didn't answer...So I text her a message...To thank her for bringing me to this world and raised me...I told her how much i love her, wishes her good health...I really hope that it's still not late. I just wanna make sure I'll be no regret when the day she leave, so does she. Although she may not a good mother when I was a kid, but people make mistakes. I am an adult now and I don't need her guardian anymore...She has totally changed since the last year incident. Now at least we can talk, and I am happy enough...

What a blessed...for what I am now. The reason why I re-open this blog, to make a fresh start again...I've finally deleted all post that I've posted previously, sad and sorrow...no point to keep those memories....I wanna make this blog as my life journal from now on...no sad news...no criticizes...no bitching around. Isn't that cool? Because I'm loved, from those peoples surrounded me, family and friends...bless and I love you all...

Saturday, December 4, 2010

It's been a while...

What have I missed? So long to tell...But anyways, it's a good transform for me...Everything has changed miraculously I can say...

First...I wanna thank everyone that given me courage and help...with all your love, I can't describe how much thankful I am right now. Without you all, I didn't even could walk til here. Thank you, and bless you all...

My best friend Beetho, Agnes...my mom, sis & bro...Zianne, Jack, Aminah, Ally, Mama Queen, Yap, Joey, Lock, Terence my god brother, Lim, Jean, Aunnie, Cal, Pauline, Sharon, Ju Sern, Nicky, Jo, Nee, Alex Teo, Jane Khaw, Aupei...and so many more...sory if i didn't mention your name folks, it has been too many...but you know who you are...and of course, my 2 lovely daughters, NiuNiu and KaKa, and papa from heaven.

I treasure and grateful for what I am having now, beautiful friends, a comfort house, wonderful meals....and keep telling myself to be more positive and smile whenever I can...Life is beautiful...I'm feeling so energetic and excited for everything's good that I am receiving...

Yeah I know, this blog is only restricted to a few good friends to view, but I am figuring out whether I should re-open it back to public...should I? or maybe I should delete all the previous post first? It's a good start for me and I should keep it as a practice.

Letting go those negative energy...so I should also letting go and forgive those ppl that against me...criticized me even though they know nothing about me...bless you all...I mean it. No point to keep the anger for so long...in the end of the day, you guys will get the judgment anyways...

As for the love of my life, maybe you may thinking that I'm a psycho or what...I just wanna tell you...no matter what have happened between us for the past 2 years, that I'm cool and already accepted the facts. Life goes on...